Day 43

I haven't been to sleep yet so I haven't missed a day out! I am currently in the library doing an all nighter to try and get as much of my essay done as I can which will mean that I will have less stress later in the week and also doing it this way is actually quite fun! Today has been a good day for food, but I have been a bit grumpy, one because I woke up sad, which is never good and two, the library had no relevant book to my essay, not even loosely related ones. I did also go for a run today, but could only do 10 sit ups because they hurt so much, my tummy muscles are ripped! But I do have a lot more motivation for running at the moment, and I have Tessa to thank for that! 


Day 43

• 1 packet of Nik Naks
• 1 yoghurt
• some egg fried rice with prawns and chicken
• raspberry crumble bar

Not to blow my own trumpet but my egg fried rice is the best in the world - my mum agrees (but she is biased) but my housemate who is in the library with me described it as "euphoria in a box" which is quite nice, and probably the best compliment for my cooking I've ever had! 

Anyway lovelies, I bid you goodnight!!

Emma xx

Day 42

Can't believe I forgot to write!! Well I'm here now to do yesterdays quickly as I have only just woken up. Went for a run again yesterday (doctor told me I have to now) and a dog ended up chasing me, bloody terrifying!! Doctor said my blood is fun...but....um yeah....depression. Load of bollocks, I'm fine!! So I have to run every day for 2 weeks then go back. Which is good, because it means I have to do it!! But I didn't stretch properly yesterday and now my legs hurt.


Day 42

• 1 egg
• Rustlers burger
• 2 fajitas
• some prawns

In my defence, I was awake for a long time...I do need to start going to bed earlier and getting up earlier again now though. However I think I am doing an all nighter tonight on my essay to try and make it work.

Good morning :)

Emma xx

Day 41

So, today started off really well, but then I got really bored and went out, but I went out for a meal. To start with it was going to be a salad and a drink, then it was a meal and a drink. This was because the place we were going to go was full so we had to go somewhere else instead. So yeah...


Day 41

• small bit of chicken (1/4 of a breast)
• 2 olives
• 1 boiled egg
• 2 fried eggs
• 6 chips
• 2 pieces of ham
• 1 piece of toast

So its still really not bad, but I'm still disappointed but I did go for a run today, and cleaned the kitchen, and did a load of sit ups, so it's still not as bad as I thought. Before I could have quite easily eaten four times that, if not more!!

Night darlings!

Emma xx

Day 40

So I already miss my boyfriend - I'm so bloody soppy! But I was right so far, I'm not eating as much. My boyfriend like very particular food, his favourite meal being sausage, cheesy mash and tinned spaghetti. Therefore I cook this once or maybe twice a week, that's what I end up eating aswell, whereas I would usually be more than happy with eating a small salad or a piece of fish, rather than a meal with lots of bits in...but my portions are about 1/5 of his, if not less...


Day 40

• 2 packets of Nik Naks
• Sausage roll
• Piece of toast
• Boiled egg
• Yoghurt

I've also finished one of my assignments!!! S now I have 2 more to go, one next Thursday and one a bit later, but I'm not sure when...But I'm already a lot less stressed purely because this one was the hardest one for me (I'm no good at programming - it will definitely be my summer project!), but now it's out the way!

Night lovelies!!

Emma xx

Day 39

So I have realised I have been putting some of the weight back on, but although its creeping back on in some places, its leaving others. But I do need to think more about my food. Let me show you my lunch...

This is a tiny plate. That is one chopped up carrot, 1/2 a boiled egg and 1/2 a sausage roll. I left 1/2 a sausage roll and 1/2 the carrots. What I'm going to do now is try and eat healthier food. I have ended up eating really unhealthy food, where as I could be eating a lot healthier food and shift this weight faster!!

Day 39

• 2 and a 1/2 boiled eggs
• 1/2 carrot
• 1/4 sausage roll
• 2 fajitas

However my darling boyfriend is going away for a couple of days so will probably eat a bit less, purely because I wont be cooking for him. And I'll be stressing about coursework so will probably be in the library.

Night darlings!

Emma xx

Day 38

I think I'm feeling more relaxed today, but I am still eating lots...well its more lots of tiny bits...but the coursework isn't freaking me out so much. I'm getting there which is good, and it's hard, but I'm getting there...Also, the microwave in this house belongs to ME and for some reason it keeps getting dirty and people aren't cleaning it. I clean it whenever I use it, but now I'm just annoyed so I have taken the plate and the spinny thing out so no-one can use it. If they want to use it, they can clean it. I clean that thing 3 times a week! It's not that hard to wipe it when it's wet, but it is when its dried on. Rant over.

Day 38

• special chow mein
• 1 sausage
• small dollop of potato
• forkfull of spaghetti
• piece of cake
• some prawn crackers

I have started cleaning now to get over my anger, so the house should be spotless in a week!

Goodnight darlings!

Emma xx

Day 37

Still stressing, but eaten less today, although had a few more prawn crackers than needed!! Feeling better about my coursework though, but so tired!! Haven't done photos, purely because I forgot and didn't have time, but will do soon. Also haven't pood in ages. Probably should...I have some natural laxative things but am scared to use them in case I react badly to them so have decided to take them the night before I am not leaving the house and the Asian house mates are out so I can get to the bathroom whenever I need to!! I'm not being racist, but it's a fact that they spend more time in the bathroom than anyone else in this house, especially two of them. One because she is Muslim and needs to do her absolution and the other because he has decided that he needs to poo before he showers, so will sit on the toilet for 2 hours a day until he does a poo...and when he is not showering he plays angry birds when he is on the loo!! So yes, not racist, factual.


Day 37

• 1 piece of pizza
• 5 prawn crackers
• some special chow mein

and I think that's it :) So now I'm going to bed...

Goodnight lovelies!! 

Emma xx