Day 88

Simple day, spent in front of the TV revising, was nice! But boring, so stupidly ate out of boredom! Anyways, I have decided I want to be 105 pounds, which is the lowest end of the BMI healthy weight scale, but I have been there before, and it's when I looked my best - I was never to slim. Also I don't know if i had said this before, but a couple of weeks ago I tried on my sisters jeans (which were a size 10) and they fitted me!! which means...I'M A SIZE 10!! which is a big change from a size 16! It may have just been that pair, but still, it made me so happy! And I won't be buying any more clothes until I'm at a stable weight, but a new bikini is a must! 


But I also watched made in Chelsea, which was good because seeing Millie Macintosh was good motivation, she is perfectly slim! and stunning as well...so here are a few pics if any of you don't know who she is.





and an underwear shot, to see her lovely smooth stomach!





Would like a little bit more boob though, but I'd rather have a beautifully flat stomach then boobs! Ans she is stunning as she is! 


Day 88

• 2 fig rolls (still need help poo-ing)
• 2 wagon wheels (I blame revision!)
• 2 slices of bread with broken up burger and grilled cheese on

So it is quite a lot! But it will even out, it's mostly out of boredom!

Thank you lovelies!

Emma xx

Days 84, 85, 86 & 87

Again I haven't written for a while! Although I have been ill, I think I have the flu :( But cracking on with the revision anyway! It seems like a lot, but no doubt my appetite will go down even more because of being ill!


Day 84

• sausage roll
• 2 pieces of pizza

Day 85

• lasagne
• pizza baguette slice

Day 86

• scampi
• cadburys caramel bar
• honey roasted peanuts

Day 87

• nakd bar
• couple of mini vegetables samosas
• chicken burger

Thankyou darlings!!


Emma xx

Day 77, 78, 79, 80, 81, 82 & 83

I cannot believe it's been a whole week since I last wrote! Revision is getting the best of me, I fear! So I'm back at home, the one where I grew up, and time is just whizzing past, between seeing people and working I have none left! I've been to dinner quite a few times, and I think losing track of time is making me eat a little more. I look a little bigger but the scales don't agree! I might just be being paranoid! Anyways, I'm still so much happier than before, nothing can get me down now, and I havn't cried once!


Day 77

• 3 chicken nuggets
• 2 fishcakes

Day 78

• hot dog
• salmon mayonnaise sandwich
• peice of toast

Day 79

• toast
• 1/2 micropizza

Day 80 (Easter)

• Roast (very mini)
• 3 mini chocolate eggs

Day 81

• fishcake
• mussels & half chunk of bread
• 1 peice of pizza

Day 82

• 2 peices of pizza
• sushi (salmon rice, edamame, chicken rice roll, miso soup)
• battered lemon sole and 6 chips

Day 83

• 1 peice of pizza
• 1/2 chocolate egg

Blimey, writing that out makes me feel fat, that looks like loads!!! Think I need to do some more exercise...anyways, all is good!

Thank you darlings!

Emma xx

Days 71, 72, 73 ,74, 75 & 76

So I've been at home with no internet, I'm sorry! But I feel so much better about everything!! So I went to see Tessa on Saturday and she was (as always) fantastic! Immediately felt better and have been on a bit of a high ever since! I feel no need to take the prescription so far and am just feeling fantastic about everything, havn't had a down moment yet! I feel a bit sad that my boyfriend has moved back home (for work, only for a couple of months) but it's a different type of sad.

Day 71

• cous cous

Day 72

• bowl of cereal
• slice of pizza

Day 73

• peanut butter sandwich
• grilled cheese

Day 74

• can't remember, sorry!

Day 75

• brie bacon and cranberry baguette
• 2 slices of pizza

Day 76

• chow mein
• 1/2 crab baguette
• 1/2 crayfish baguette
• packet of crisps

I think that's about everything! 

Thank you darlings!

Emma xx

Day 62, 63, 64, 65, 66, 67, 68, 69 & 70

Now that is a lot of days! Lots of revision to be and have been doing but also had to take a couple of breaks and take advantage of this beautiful weather! Obviously I went back home for the weekend which was lovely...but this means I can't remember what I have really eaten! I went to the River Cottage place in Plymouth, which although it was lovely, the mussels weren't that good quality and I have had better at home, but the seafood was delicious! Anyways, it might not be completely accurate because of my memory, but i will try to get it as accurate as possible, bear in mind as well that I have been very busy and havnt had a huge amount of time to eat.


Some of days 62, 63, 64 & 65

• Mussels
• mixed battered fish
• fish fingers and wedges
• pizza (best in the world but only 2 slices)

Day 66

• 1 mini lemon meringue cake
• most of a burger
• 1/2 a homemade pizza

Day 67

• 1/2 a homemade pizza

Day 68

• chicken mayo sandwich
• sausage roll

Day 69

• half a bowl of cous cous 
• a mini pizza toast

Day 70

• 5 chilli rice crackers
• 1 piece of toast
• 2 spoonfulls of cous cous

So that's as much as I can remember! Going home tomorrow after my life coaching thing in Bath, taking a bit of work with me, but tomorrow will be exhausting!! 

Thankyou darlings!

Emma xx

Day 58, 59, 60 & 61

So have been very very stressed over the last couple of weeks with the depression thing and all my coursework, so haven't had much chance to keep up with this, but it's in tomorrow and then I just have to stress about exams, which I am much better at! So on day 59 two of my housemates and I made a smorgasbord which is when you make a whole table full of completely random food and all sit down together to eat it, it was very very fun! So we had roast potatoes, steak pies, mini pizzas (which I made), some of my famed egg fried rice with prawns and chicken and then some lemon chilli salmon as well. Which also meant that over the next couple of days we had loads of food to live on and not all of it had been finished. And tomorrow I am going back home to the sea to alleviate some of the stress and see my family and friends which will be nice!!

So here is a picture of our smorgasbord with one of the housemates tucking in 

already! And this was between three of us...

Day 58

• Squid in chilli sauce
• 1 piece of bacon
• 1 egg
• chicken nugget

Day 59

• yogurt
• mini pizza
• egg fried rice 
• salmon

Day 60

• mini pizza
• mackerel pate on crackers
• egg fried rice
• cola lace

Day 61

• steak pie
• 2 fish cakes
• hash brown
• 2 cookies

Thank you lovelies!

Emma xx

Day 57

So I had my last hypno gastric banding today, had it tightened a little bit. I also spoke to Tessa about my depression and she has agreed to help me with that as well, so will update you in 2 weeks when it happens, even had a mini session today and already feel better!! So I am not going to take the pills yet and I will wait until afterwards if I'm not better. I am definately turning into a hypno addict!! It's brilliant!! And please remind me to do my photos, I keep forgetting! I have to do them in the morning before I eat anything because I bloat terribly!


Day 57

• 1/2 a hoisin duck wrap
• 1/2 a burger
• small fishcake

My lovely family also came up to surprise me which was lovely!! Really cheered me up and we went out to dinner. My lovely mother is doing the hypno-gastric banding as well so she got a starter (two fishcakes) and I got a burger and we split them. It was wonderful!


Thank you darlings!

Emma xx